The drug in me is you.

I hide my pain behind a smile, knowing people that aren't from the internet will think I'm a happy person, but the truth is my life is miserable, like the knife of pain keeps coming down onto me everyday. I hope all my friends become happy, and I hope soon my true smile will come out and show itself to the world, I this miserable girl will not need to hide behind a fake smile anymore, because she wants to run, and be free, and live a care free life. Because you only live once in life, cherish the good moments, and forget about the pain. Those memories will always be there, but sometimes if you don't grasp the happy times, you'll never find a happy moment.
 

 
I'm a self harmer, have been for a while. After I got too stressed and bullied, Which I have been for many years now, I tried to kill myself. First, a knife to the wrist, but I could't do it, So, I drunk nail polish remover. Still here to tell the tales. I wish I had died, but I didn't. I saved a life a few weeks ago.
 
Bye.